WHAT DOES IT FEEL LIKE TO BE FREE?
Have you ever experienced complete and total liberation? Do you even think it’s possible? Do you think there will always be something holding you down or that not feeling free is all just a part of life? I happen to know that it is possible to be completely set free, and I would like to take a minute to share my experience.
In 2016 my wife and I went to Todd White’s evangelism training. I was a little nervous because we had been immersing ourselves in Todd’s videos since finding out about him, and I had an idea of what I was getting myself into. Forget getting our feet wet; We were jumping in head first.
Most people I talk to seem to be nervous about praying with others, especially when it pertains to praying for healing. Praying for people in public was definitely outside of our comfort zone. Years of man’s traditions and doctrines have complicated it. Todd made it simple. Before Todd’s training I felt like I had to rattle off the best, most eloquent and spiritual prayer, crossing every “T” and dotting every “I” before anyone could be healed. I love what Dan Mohler says regarding healing. He says, “Be healed in the name of Jesus, is probably enough, if you believe.” Wow! All this time my faith had been in my prayer. It’s this simplistic view of the Word that helped set me free. As I watched videos of Todd White, Robbie Dawkins, and others pray for people this simply, it dawned on me that I could do this, too.
FEAR OF MAN
In my past and even now, if I take my eyes off Jesus, the fear of man can rob me of who Jesus called me to be. I feel great resistance when I step out, especially when praying for healing, because the devil knows what’s on the other side. At the Power & Love conference I recently attended, Robbie Dawkins explained that the fear we feel is actually the devil’s. God hasn’t given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7 If God didn’t give it to us, then it’s not ours. “Well, if it’s not my fear, whose is it?” Or, “Why do I feel it, if it’s not mine?” That’s an excellent question! Robbie explained that it’s actually the devil’s fear that you are feeling. He’s actually emitting fear. When you know you’re supposed to step out and pray or give an encouraging word to somebody, the devil emits fear because he knows the breakthrough that awaits when we step out in the authority Jesus gave us. He also pointed out that the anointing is in the stepping out. The level of risk equals the level of anointing. When David went down to slay Goliath, he stepped into the anointing when he stepped onto the battlefield. The anointing obviously wasn’t up in the safety zone where Saul and his army were hiding out.
At Todd’s evangelism training, something happened. During worship I sang and worshiped like never before. The song was “No Longer Slaves”. I felt like I received revelation regarding freedom from the fear of man. I sang louder and louder. Afterwards, we headed out to apply what we had learned. We began praying for people with obvious needs, such as for those with wheelchairs, crutches, casts, etc. We gave encouraging words and blessed people, all without the fear of man. It was amazing! I found that the more we stepped out, the easier it became. I felt the chains break off that used to bind me. I was so free. I could jump and laugh and act silly without worrying what everyone around me thought. We were so excited to bring back home this Jesus that we encountered, and pour it out everywhere we went.
“Coincidentally”, the first verse I read upon returning home was Galatians 5:1, which says to “Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.” Wow! He was speaking right to me! While at the conference, my wife commented that she had never seen me like this – free and not afraid of what people think. I told her that I felt so liberated, which isn’t a term I often use. So, you can imagine what I felt when the first verse I saw after getting home said to stand fast in liberty! It goes on to say, “You ran well. Who hindered you from obeying the truth? This persuasion doesn’t come from Him who calls you. A little leaven leavens the whole lump.” To me, leaven stood for compromise. Once we compromise we give ground to the devil. We give an inch and he takes a mile, and the next thing we know, we are right back at square one.
So I returned to work, back to the real world, applying what I’d learned. I was on a roll. I shared Jesus with everyone I could. I was praying for people and blessing people everywhere I went. It wasn’t long before resistance started to slow down my momentum. Due to some specific persecution, I was unsure how to continue sharing Jesus in certain environments, and it frustrated me. Pretty soon it wasn’t just certain environments; I had allowed the persecution to give fear another foothold, which hampered me everywhere. All I thought about was the verse in Galatians, “Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.” I didn’t know how I had gotten here again. I thought about the other verse that said, “A little leaven leavens the whole lump”, and it begin to make sense. I was taking ground, and the devil took notice. He didn’t sit idly by while we gained ground for the kingdom. So, when the resistance came, I began to compromise (a little leaven). I was praying for people less and less. Rather than looking for opportunities to manifest Jesus, I found myself turning a blind eye. It ate at me because I knew who I was created to be, and knew I was allowing myself to shrink back because of the compromise and fear of man (yoke of bondage) that I had allowed back in my life.
Thank God for His grace and mercy that I wouldn’t stay like that forever. I continued feeding on the Word and continued pressing in. I registered for the Power & Love conference at Todd White’s new training facility, in hopes of getting back the fire that I seemed to have lost. I was hoping for a fresh revelation of who I was and who Christ was in me. Although it was an amazing time and there was profound revelation and teaching from anointed teachers, the overall message was the same; The word I received in 2016 at evangelism training hadn’t changed. The gospel is the same. Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever. The only thing that had changed was that I had become complacent and had stopped doing the works! What was worse was that I had never stopped studying the Word. But, rather than applying it, I stored it and eventually it became stale, day-old manna. As I pondered this reality, I determined in my heart that I was going to do the works that Jesus did because this is who I was created to be. 1 John 2:6, John 14:12 Since then I have begun stepping out and praying for people again. It feels so natural. People are being set free!
Thankfully, Jesus never left me nor forsook me. His Word never changed. The price was paid. Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage.